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Triggering Fury

The other day Chris and I had a couple of interactions that did not go smoothly. Okay, this is an understatement. I walked away from them feeling FURIOUS. I felt boiling mad…imagine steam coming out of my ears!

I tried to calm down, but it wasn’t working as usual. The kids were not around at the time, so I opted for a little alone time and talked with Jesus about my big feelings. As I interacted with Him, the intensity of my feelings did not lessen like they usually do. However, I began to realize that maybe, just maybe, I was overreacting a little bit.

It occurred to me that Chris and I often have misunderstandings, and usually I feel frustrated, and we quickly return to joy. This time was different. I didn’t feel frustrated; I felt FURIOUS. I wasn’t recovering.

I gave my feelings and the situation to Jesus then I asked Him what else He wanted me to know. I realized I was feeling way out of control and as if my husband did not care about what was important to me, which, sadly, is a familiar feeling from my past.

While the interaction with Chris was upsetting, the intensity I was feeling was out of proportion for the current situation.

My past was unapologetically invading my present.

If there is something I have learned over the years, it is this. When I react with out-of-proportion intensity, there is more going on than meets the eye.

This is known as being triggered, and our friend Dr. Karl Lehman also identifies this as unprocessed implicit memory, which refers to the feelings that are present without the information or details that go with the emotions.

When a situation in present-day life unconsciously reminds me of unresolved feelings (or circumstances) from the past, we call this being “triggered.”

The difficulty with being triggered is we usually do not recognize it at the time and the intense feelings from the past spill into the current situation. What should be a minor frustration begins to skyrocket into big and unmanageable emotions that are “off the charts.”

In these moments nothing is going to go well until I can quiet and have Jesus help me turn down the intensity from the past enough to resolve the problem in the present.

Many things help me when I am triggered. Sometimes the simple act of quieting is enough. Since this is the easiest, I usually start there.

If I need more, I talk with Jesus about how I am feeling and invite Him to help me calm down or show me what He wants me to know about the situation. This step helps me feel seen, validated and understood so that I am not so alone in my feelings.

I find that practicing appreciation warms up my brain and considerably increases the chances that I will be able to sense Jesus’ presence – even in the midst of my distress.

When I have quieted and can see clearly where my past feelings are active, I can see the present problem and take responsibility for my part in the current situation.

After calming down, I was able to follow-up with Chris on our previous interactions. I could now own that the earlier situation did not justify the intensity of my reaction. I was able to express to him how I felt hurt by our interaction. My patient husband heard me and was apologetic.

We discussed how the situation could be handled differently next time around. We were able to come up with a plan that felt good to both of us, and we felt like we were again on the same team. We were able to bring peace and joy back.

It is incredible how quickly things can spiral downward when triggered feelings go unrecognized. In most cases, our spouse has the response, “You are overreacting!”

We may be overreacting, but when our past pain includes feeling invalidated or minimized, things will be more explosive.

Once we can calm down, recognize where the past is sneaking into the present and turn down the volume on the big feelings, the interaction has a much higher chance of resolving more satisfyingly for everyone.

To learn more about triggers and implicit memory, I highly encourage you to read Outsmarting Yourself by Dr. Karl Lehman.

This blog was originally posted February 7, 2017. 

Comments 3

  1. Erna Topliffe
    August 10, 2018

    Yes, understanding about triggering certainly helps understanding ‘over reacting’ to the current situation.

    I have benefited from reading ‘Outsmarting Yourself’ as well as attending Dr. Lehman’s training and Thrive training.
    Yesterday when 3 clients did ‘No Show’, I had the opportunity to not go into previous insecure attachment pain!

    So glad for you and Chris, Dr. Lehman, and all the Thrive team!

  2. Janice Griswell
    August 10, 2018

    This piece is powerful, as always, Jen. Thanks for being willing to share the tough moments, even ‘failings’, which encourage the rest of us that growing up is life-long and that show us how to respond and process in our own moments and areas of weakness.
    Personally, I would find it useful to hear more about the plan that you and Chris came up with to handle these trigger situations differently in the future. I know how important such a plan is – otherwise we are left either unrealistically euphoric once the current situation is resolved, or subconsciously fearful of the next time we get heavily triggered. Are there principles or steps in the plan you two established that are sharable with your readers? (Perhaps you already have this planned for another post!)
    Thanks for the writing your share that connects brain skills and maturity principles with real life!
    Blessings to you, Chris and your boys.

  3. Mike and Deana
    August 10, 2018

    Excellent blog, Jen!~your honest & vulnerable sharing along with your skill “with the pen” in so well conveying these important things with regards to when one is triggered; including, quieting & talking with Jesus IS truly a Blessing, Friend~Shalom & Blessings to you & Chris and all of your dear family; and, also to everyone who reads these Thrive Today blogs~With Much Love & Appreciation, Mike & Deana

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